I fucking hate Saturdays.

[sarren]

...well, not hate. Hate is a strong word.

See this is that Libran 'fairness' thing. I'm not into star signs at all, but I've noticed that that's the one thing that seems to be mentioned consistantly.

I want to rant on about how much my life sucks (cos that's how I FEEL right now) but every time I think thoughts like that, it's like this other part of my brain immediately goes 'Well, that's not true, is it? You have a great quality of life, a decent job, a family, and wonderful friends and the internet. Lots of people have sucky, sucky lives. Get over yourself.'

And then I feel guilty.


This is all because I already fucking worked today and now I have to go back and work another shift because 3 out of 4 of the staff called in sick this afternoon. (This doesn't happen).

So, already really cranky about this I had to replace an order for a customer.

'I DID SO ask for a wing!'
'Did not.'
'DID SO.'
'DID NOT,'
'You don't have to THROW IT DOWN. The customer is ALWAYS RIGHT.'
'Not when they fraudulantly use other people's cards to get discounts they're not!'

(There's a much longer rant to go with this customer, starting a week ago, probably just as well I didn't get around to setting up the voice post *sigh*)

But I've got home and had time to read Icarus' John/Rodney iceskating AU WIP which made most of the rage go away, and then a Jack/Daniel fic by her that didn't quite work for me, oddly, this writer used to have the same effect on me when I read her HP fics.

Also, sometimes 'effect' and 'affect' hurt my brain.

Also, I don't understand how some people can go through life being angry all the time. I mean, I get angry, but leave me alone for about 10 minutes and I usually get over it - this staying angry, this ball of - something - in my chest - makes me feel sick and unhappy. How do people be angry and not be miserable about it?

Eh, enough existential angst.


(Yes I often use 'existential' inappropriately. I'm wacky like that.)

Comments

[zebra363.livejournal.com]

right now) but every time I think thoughts like that, it's like this other part of my brain immediately goes 'Well, that's not true, is it? You have a great quality of life, a decent job, a family, and wonderful friends and the internet. Lots of people have sucky, sucky lives. Get over yourself.'

You know, this is one of the main reasons I really like you — because you think like this.

Just home from Swancon — sorry I'm missing you this year.

[sarren.livejournal.com]

*hugs you*

[klia.livejournal.com]

I don't know if a better J/D story will help, but here's the link:

http://keiko-kirin.livejournal.com/11306.html#cutid1

[sarren.livejournal.com]

Very cool, thanks!

Stargate's a fandom I'm scarred by and therefore wary of - from the early days when all the fics seemed to involve rape and child abuse (or maybe that was just the mailing list I was on)

[klia.livejournal.com]

Yikes! I'm very into the characters, canon, and universe, which means I don't read much fanfic at all (because 99% of it seems to have slapped the names onto characters totally unfamiliar to me), and I can assure you Keiko's stories are as far from your experience as humanly possible. Her characterizations are just wonderful. If you haven't read her Steak series, you can find those stories here:

http://pteropus.com/keiko/sg/index.html

[sarren.livejournal.com]

I know! What is it with this fandom that the fanfic is just WRONG?

It seems like very good writer EVER is into Atlantis (for which I am sooo grateful) - what is it about Stargate that made everyone just not, you know?\

Ah, I have read the Steak series, I knew the name was familiar :) I'll have to keep an eye out for new stuff from her.

[klia.livejournal.com]

Oh, don't even get me started on SGA fic. I have issues, like the whole crack!fic thing. You know, I *like* the characters I see in the show, so why the hell would I want to read them as penguins, dinosaurs, or beanie babies?

*bangs head*

[sarren.livejournal.com]

But that's the great thing about the internet and fandom - there's something for everyone :)

I'm normally not so much into AU's etc, but for some reason I love John and Rodney SO MUCH I'll happily give anything a go, as long as it's in character. I guess it's also that cos it's Atlantis, anything can happen (theoretically). Whereas I followed some recs to an assortment of Due South genderfuck stories and whereas I could just about wrap my head around transvestite!RayK, all the actual OMG he suddenly turned into a girl! stories left me totally cold.